I believe in my heart that Felix would still be here had I reacted faster. And it will always be Lollys Hill, and we will always love you. But Im not that that stupid I know I should have or could have acted quicker. Not sure Ill ever be able to forgive myself. I didnt take responsibility for the decision, and thats on me, always. I dont hit my dogs , yet , since theyre not very trained, I yell at them when they are doing something stupid. As long as the recommended dosage is used, Benadryl can be used safely on dogs. Of all the offmychest stories these ones eat at me the most. I had to go to the bathroom really bad. It seemed far fetch but a skunk was living under my home at the time. I observed her for 35 minutes to be sure she was tolerating the new meds, and I went for a walk to the lake to allow her some rest. I'm actually crying. Grwm storytime : my mom killed my fish | *Accidentally | Mama I know that you're not going to let me get a dog | . If you killed a dog with a knife by accident, unpleasant events are waiting for the dreamer and his family. I said sorry to Lolly out loud, for so many things. We found out she was about 14 years old, had no teeth, was blind in the other eye as well, and only weighed about 3lbs. I never even do treatments each year but had to go in the countryside so thought it was useful. Goodbye, Friend: Healing Wisdom for Anyone Who Has Ever Lost a Petis the number one bestselling book on pet loss and grief on Amazon. I know this is confessions and what not but i really want to beat the living shit out of you. Maybe you should attempt to be helpful / constructive before hateful and useless. I adopted my sweet baby boy Cerberus at 3 months old. Two days later, I get a phone call from a man who saw my flyers. I thought as long as she didnt have an empty tummy shed be fine. The integration went well. Dogs usually experience mild side effects from fish oil. She was 15 years old very tired . I cant sleep im scared that what if the next day i wake up and shes dead. Her head was not available as I had her tested for rabies. I have this weird feeling in my tummy since it happened and I cant stop crying. Then a few months later we started to notice blood on her thats when we notice that it had got bigger and ulcerated. He did it so many times over the years that my wife and I just got used to it, and took it for granted that he would always come back safe. Im here because last week my little 6 lb baby Zoey went out in the yard to do her potty before bed like always my husband is usually here and he goes out with both dogs but this time it was me i turned all the lights on and watched both dogs go out and everything seemed fine 10-15 minutes later i go looking for her i looked everywhere house rest of the yard and then i seen her in the pool drowned i immediately jump in to get her and laid her down and tried to give her cpr it didnt work i was in a deep shock and Im still so devastated i cant stop blaming myself on top of missing her so much weve had her for 14 years after the kids were gone and she was our baby so loyal and sweet she was a big part of our lives for so long.i dont know how i will ever get over the blame. I could have tried to push his head out harder. Over the years we really did not have to deal with death. I stopped handling her. Then I remembered she was with me in the laundry room and to my horror I found her in the washing machine. I took photos of my son before his first ever night out - as I put them So we got the pig in july I got a cage and food and waterI taught my kid how to handle it so I didnt have to be bothered. Or something worse. 1 lbs and 10 oz. We do have two dogs and another cat. Bringing hope & helping you find Freedom & Courage. So I gave him to my mom (who I take care of) and said mom we just have to let him pass it and go through it, its happened before, she said to me that he was going to die and my dumb self said no because I didnt think so. Please bring her back :'( <\3. If you feel remise and know it's wrong you can be better. We named her Emie. Identify real guilt about your pets death. Please take a moment to read it its the comments on this article that inspired me to write it. I screamed the neighbourhood down. I'm so sorry that happened to you guys. What you did was incredibly wrong but you can at least try and make it better by helping yourself and then going and helping other animals. They told us she was dehydrated and her heart rate was very low. I watched her eat and drink to be sure that wasnt an issue. @JoshDM I wouldn't know whether to expect a lick or a bite. Im so sorry that I failed you. I usually replace his water and give him vitamin paste before I go to work too, but I didnt even do that. I talked to a pet-loss expert -- here's what she said. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. You are going to get through this. When I noticed I tried to grab him by the collar, he thought I was playing and ran out onto the road right in front of a bus. 11 days ago. I shouldnt have taken him outside. For a few weeks I tried to help her heal. I realized she was having a neurological event. She said that Lollys chance of living a normal life if she woke up at all was almost nil, and that there was a chance she was suffering. This was nearing hour 3. I petted her and then turned around to hug my son. And I completely scared my kid ! While I couldnt do anything. Fern tries to play with her; theyre working out a dynamic. He was half under the seat and didnt think anything of it. The vet called late afternoon. Balance your real guilt with the real ways you loved your pet. I was a bit annoyed about it because I felt like this was quite pressing, but maybe she improved? - JoshDM. Right away I saw him stuck under my seat. I never left that visit thinking any real serious organ damage was happening, nor was I told to look for warning signs of anything at all. Noone would take them. We waited in all day for the phone call. I know it's been a long time but I don't think I ever accepted the loss, and I still blame myself and our carelessness. As Alan tried to rush through the revolving doors, his neck got caught in it, also getting the male worker stuck . Saying good-bye to your beloved dog or cat is heartbreaking and its even worse if you feelguiltyabout your pets death. The vet called and said we should consider putting him to sleep, but then called me back in 10 min and said nm hes fine he can go home. I was crying, exhausted, my adrenaline teetering. Id worry less about her cos she always kept herself to herself and was a very low maintenance. It was all so unexpected. I cant live in this house anymore, I threw out everything. Her head got slammed in the door, and she dropped to the ground without a sound. i seriously need help. (Before you ever have a family of your own, for Gods sake). She slept beside me in bed and sometimes on my pillow. I had said before we went away to leave the bathroom window tilted open because I had observed our other cat Cleo so artfully scramble her way up the window on many occasions to let herself in. I have a gut-wrenching feeling inside with so much regret from these last 2 weeks or so, even though I think I did good before all of this. 849 votes, 650 comments. I thought if this was hypoglycemia the sugar would help. She needed an companion that she could cuddle alot. This book will help you understand why your feelings are so overwhelming, and help you cope with the guilt you feel about your pet's death. If she jumped off the bed at night and i noticed Id tell her to hop up and shed jump back up beside me. My 7 month kitten died because of me. My darling, my princess. Ozgur . After one hour she lost her breath she died im so dumb i should have taken her to the vet earlier i should have taken an appointment to the vet the day i found out she lost her appetite so that the next day i can bring her to the vet . I'm so sorry to hear that. I know it might not be much coming from an internet stranger, but if you want it, please consider my advice: What happened was a horrible, heart-wrenching accident. Im truly sorry for those of you who are experiencing the same level of grief, blame, anger, guilt and sadness that I am. She was by my side the whole time. I hit every wall in my house and blame myself for him dying! He looked particularly smart as earl I feel like an idiot for not doing it. That dog didnt do anything wrong, you did. This is all my fault. Remember that its normal to feel guiltywhen your dog or cat dies. She laid down but refused to get up and appeared suddenly lethargic. Answer (1 of 13): Never had a pet!! i cant believe i did that to him. And I decided to take my cat on the road with me. We came home and found him barely clinging to life. I wish I could go back in time. We share ideas to encourage women over 40 to make positive changes and Blossom in a new season of life! I walked around the house calling her to no avail. We believed you were going to be here for a long time and that when my mom passed we would still have to take care of you. Then I decided to take him to my vet to put him to sleep instead. It hurts so much more that I dont even know exactly when she died and I couldnt find her in her usual state. She had her usual awareness, a few meows in protest of the day. It was anaccident, and you would have done things differently if you had know what would happen. Have you ever killed your pet intentionally? - Quora She knew that her family, although mourning for her, will eventually do the same as Kion's family -- adopt, love, and cherish all the more another kindred animal. I feel horrible. But, I slowly started to neglect her more and more. I feel like I failed him and he trusted me; he was like my little brother that I couldnt have. I feel sick when I think about it and how she passed in my husbands arms. I noticed if I stopped, she would go limp, and was not breathing on her own or with a pulse. I knew she was having a tough time but I figured it was wasted effort anyway. But I feel terrible because I know how much she likes to get outside and I suppose with her being let indoors overnight by the sitter and also she may have been wanting to get out to do her business or go on the prowl and with no one present to let her get out she attempted to go out by herself and got trapped, leading to her death. On october i shifted from city to village because i lost my job. Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. Im sorry and I hope you forgive me prince, I know you suffered and it wasnt right, even if you were going to die regardless last night I shouldve not left you in there with mom, I shouldve taken you to the vet so you could go peacefully. By the time Pronto died, old Babs, the third cat, didnt do much more than sleep so Duffy had no cat to rely on. After they all staying with me for a while in my bedroom , where I usually play games, we all go downstairs and I let them in the yard to play. It doesn't seem like "oh I get mad soemtimes"; but more like "I have a literally problem with my brain, or whatever, and it makes me unable to control my anger.". So approximately 17 days after our beloved friend, our old man, our fur baby of 9 years goes missing, the MAN of the house gets off his lazy ass and puts out signs on the street corners. Shes 11 years old and i feel so useless i should have done it earlier i feel like i did not do anything for her im so dumb i cant stop crying im tired of crying day and night but i cant help myself to cry the pain in my chest was unbearable i cant stop blaming myself for what happened. From the sound of it, you gave that little dog the best quality of life possible. qualifies. You were annoying little Chihuahua but you were only 8 You had so much more love and life to give!!! But there was no progress until 4.00pm then I wanted to go the Vet. Ha! Whether it's long-standing baggage, happy thoughts, or recent trauma, posting it here may provide some relief. I sent her for necropsy because I needed answers. He used to love it. She follows me everywhere and if I'm in bed, she will meow obnoxiously until she can snuggle up on top of or around me. Ive always said her and Mum are who I love the most. Your story has taken me right back to that moment, and brought tears to my eyes. If only i brought her earlier to the vet earlier she wont die she died because of my dumbness. Another type of imagined guilt is if youve accidentally caused your pets death by letting him out, keeping him in, or losing track of his whereabouts. I deserve to feel this way. Sleep tight Lollybun, Special Girl, Special Rabbit, Lollybum, Lollybumby. I recently wrote How to Forgive Yourself for Not Protecting Your Dog, to help you deal with the guilt you feel. Not just lifeless but, decaying. My mom took in a baby bird that was removed from her nest because some people chopped down the tree she was in. I looked and saw something in there. When my German Shepherd, Hugo, died, it felt like a part of me had been clawed out and torn away. The stress of money, work, kids, marriage, and daily life may have taken precedence over how you treated your pet. I don't know what else to say, but that time heals all wounds. You are going to save that dog from euthanasia. One Highly Effective Way to Kill Your Dog - Roots K9 Maybe you should attempt to be helpful / constructive before hateful and useless. It was so careless, but we just wanted to give him a chance to really run. Highway patrol should have somehow got something to cut through the metal or got someone who could! I didnt want to go in and tell her. My husband feels more guilty and blames himself. The guilt of having killed my dog who trusted me. He was patient, sweet, loving, loyal, and had a load of personality. We moved about 2 weeks ago and both my wife and I were stressed out about it all the time, so I didnt give him much out time like I used to; maybe a total of 1 or 1 1/2 hours a day tops, and even then he would spend a chunk of that sleeping somewhere. When Your Pet Dies: A Guide to Mourning, Remembering and Healingby Alan D. Wolfelt is a guide for pet owners who are struggling with grief when their pet dies. We have spent a lot of money so far trying to heal him but he might have problems for life . Im so sorry bibble. Am so guilty over it all its killing me . Join. She heart a 1/6 heart murmur but said thats not unusual for her with the hyperthyroidism. In some cases, the side effects can be serious, even life-threatening. Dogs, death and you - Survival Mode - Minecraft Forum So given that I believed the arrest was the result of these fluids and the stress surrounding the day, I continued aggressive cpr. I only wish I could have done things differently and could be cuddling my girl instead of mourning for her and feeling this tremendous amount of guilt. Shortly after she arrived, I came down with Covid. so this saturday i came home to a messed up house and i snapped. Please please be careful with your pets. Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. I feel so much guilt that i killed him and Im so so sorry for everything. Trust me, that's what Bella would've wanted. The bundle of love he was just breaks my heart in tiny pieces. It's been 5 years since he died. See the unfiltered opinions of strangers. She was getting too use to living with us and I knew it, yet I still wanted to see her fly free. I didnt even talk to my psychologist about it because more than being disonest i feel unhuman because of what i did to my dog. i kicked the $#%^ out of him a couple times and i beat him in his head as well. No, in reality, a dog owner should not be suing a veterinarian if they think Cerenia has been the cause of their pet's death. Blah. I wanted so much to save her and give her all the love she hadnt had until the day I found her. Then I told her to watch him and I went to bed, she woke me up in the morning and I came down not knowing or hearing her tell me he was dead in the bed, so I looked for him thinking he was alive and pulled the blankets back and went to grab him and he was dead, stuff eyes open. I caressed his little head for the last time, scratching his ear as I often did, and then I shoveled the cold earth over my tiny dude, my buddy weasel bear. I did it when she asked, but I shouldnt have waited for her to ask me. It wasn't your fault. He was such a gentle dog and I let him down. Maybe I should to help the vet? I never saw seizure activity in an animal before. Whether it's long-standing baggage, happy thoughts, or recent trauma, posting it here may provide some relief. The next 3 hours are jumbled bits of hysteria, trauma, tears, and aggressive attempt to save my baby, who I thought was in fairly good health for a senior cat. You have actually committed a crime. I run 2 businesses and I feel I have not taken the needed time to love on this absolutely sweet dog God gave meand 2 days ago I was running a fever of 102 up til today. 10 mins or so later they got him free but all i saw was his dead eyes and bloody mouth and claws (he was ripping his nails off trying to free himself). I cant shake the guilt as I have a reversing camera but at the time I was focussed on the wing mirrors as I was coming out of the garage. We had one call as an update, saying that Lolly was running around and eating and seemed okay, but the operation had been delayed because an emergency case had come in. I also had been neglecting to fully clean him up and bathe him since we were at this new place. I hope God will forgive me and my precious dog named Pima. Severity of the poisoning also depends on how much the animal is exposed to, and dogs and cats (as well as some breeds of each) will react differently to consuming the chemical. I did not hear from them, I called, blood was drawn but was not reviewed yet and the doctor did not examine her yet. All I know is theres so many questions we all have at this sudden and shocking time, and were heartbroken he never came to his new home and that we werent there with him in his last hours. Talking and writing about it is healthier than ignoring it, and can help you process your grief. In my effort to protect the wound and let it heal, I caused her another, more serious, problem. PROUD mum Vicky Simpson smiled as she looked at the photo she'd just uploaded to Facebook of 18-year-old son Liam, all ready for his first ever night out. Some time later I found out If only I could have went downstairs I could have gotten hold of him. Get off the internet and seek help immediately before you harm yourself or someone else. The woman told me to call by 1pm if I had not heard from them. And if his sister dies itll be my fault. I took him out of his comfort zone. His brother Duffy got very depressed and died a month later of a heart attack. I accidentally killed my dog : r/offmychest - reddit List of time travel works of fiction - Wikipedia I had a basket full of clean clothes that had been sitting crumpled up for a couple days. All of a sudden he had another episode last night, what would happen is his front legs would go stiff straight and it spasm and then he would pant like crazy. What To Do When A Dog Dies - Fidose of Reality I interviewed veterinarians, grief counselors, and pet experts for the best ways to survive the death of a beloved dog or cat, and I included stories from real pet owners who coped with guilt and grief in sometimes surprising ways. My mind was distracted and I just feel I could have made contact with the neighbour more and asked about them while we were away. My wife was in the living room. But I didnt have enough courage to do it becuase I was dealing with severe hurt and anxiety on the same day. I held her she made barely any sounds. I decided to bury him under a tree in the back yard. She was my shadow and adored me, she would be looking out the window after me when Id go to work and i could hear her jumping on the inside of the door when i would insert the key every evening. I cant live with myself in this severe pain. Either way though, you should feel bad for what you did. i ###$ him up pretty bad. I wasnt sure why that was happening but I got her some fresh water and cleaned up her feet. I usually order bird biotic and keep in on hand but with covid, it has been impossible to get bird biotics. I loved her so much. Because I think you have well proven to yourself that you are not responsible enough for that, and personally I dont think you deserve a pets love but that my opinion, but maybe you can volunteer at a shelter or something to help animals in need. If youre struggling with grief and guilty feelings because of the circumstances surrounding your dog or cats death, readLetting Go of an Animal You Love: 75 Ways to Survive Pet Loss. I never saw her with that ununsteadiness, rapid breathing, or weakness. I cannot stop blaming myself for letting her out and running her over. I felt sick as I saw her run off. I couldnt reach out. Almost never Barked. Terrified I asked my sister to help catch her but she was too far to reach and she wasnt listening to our calls. There was one part of the road in the neighborhood that I was hesitant to enter as there were unpleasant people living there so I would only quickly scan the area for my Sofie bird. I spent months searching for the one that felt like ours and finally found him right before Christmas. Our EIN number is 94-2681680. It's been 5 years since he died. A careless groomer gives a dog razor burn, which becomes infected and requires medical attention. Thankfully, Hannah (Florios sister) is both a lovebug and an attention hog. Coping with Guilt. Tiny was a male housecat, 9 yrs old, neutered, with a very tiny little white patch on his chest. If all of that was awfull to you this is the disgusting horrible part: I try to push one of my dogs with my feet to his home , idk why , he wasnt going by my command . Maybe that will sink in enough for you to realize the urgency with which you need serious help. Grieving the loss of a pet is often as painful as mourning a close friend or relative. She said she was probably starting to have some kidney failure but that was because of her increasing thyroid level, so we increased the meds. Its just so sad and I hate to think how long she was in there stuck and struggling and suffering. Hes had some immune problems that we got basically under control and next step was housing for him. It wasnt enough. When I did so, I closed the car door. The officer tried pulling the seat.. I could have moved his head and neck when I saw lifting the chair was hurting him. I quickly laid her on the bed and realized she wasnt breathing. Im finding it increasingly difficult to live with my final decision. I know she hates me. They had put him in a black garbage bag out in their driveway. I am here because I am struggling deeply with the loss of my kitty, Yuki. Of the adults 2 are male, and there is a female puppy . Given that I could hear the fluid in her lungs, I surmised she was in congestive heart failure since the vet gave her aggressive fluids WITHOUT treating her hypertension at the office. We dropped him off on the Monday and were due to collect him on the Friday morning. That was my fault. I feel like I was neglectful of her and took her for granted. I chalked it up to age. Get help before you hurt somebody. I just miss my baby. He was very attached and dependable cat compared to my other cats. She just wanted tummy rubs and she was happy, I wish I could trade places with her. This vet missed red flags during routine care as well as on the last day. I picked her up and took her to my family hoping they would say it wasnt her body but it was. We made a 7 hour round trip drive to pick him up. I noticed weeks ago that he was not feeling well. Unfortunately, I misjudge how well integration was going, and 72 hours ago, our little kitty wandered to close while our older dog was eating and he snapped. You should feel bad. Dealing with guilt may be a bit lighter if you know you wouldve acted differently if you had the chance. Teeth bared. The vet said they dont know whats wrong because it would be a whole bunch of expensive tests, but he gave me anti seizure meds that I was supposed to be giving him 2 times daily. I should have insisted they remain closed and theyd have to be out or in regardless of whether it was against their intentions. Short answer: cover your entire hand in a light coating of peanut butter and offer it up to your dog. Pulling on my shoes, grabbing a treat and sprinting off, desperately searching for a glimpse of a big brown dog, I was scared fucking shitless. I killed my beloved pup by putting Bravecto anti flea and tick drops on him. She died because she had to have surgery to remove some of her colon and she got an infection gone the following morning. How will I ever be able to forgive my dog? I cannot describe the horror of what Im feeling. Realizing shes fine here and there without food and water. Shes Mums dog, but we are so close. Save my name, email, and website in this browser for the next time I comment. We agreed to grieve in our own ways just for that day. I was so sick yesterday I said to myself I will take us both to doctors tomorrow morning. Same happened to me my cat got stuck in the cat door a while back on the collar , and if i was not there to see it she would have died , but after she became deaf on both ears cus i took her to a bad vet that miss treated her ears and made her deaf , i had so much blame cus of that , anyways after she got stuck like that i promised my self she should never have a collar on again , but since she now had become deaf i dident want her to get run over by cars this winter in the dark , cus she cant hear them , so i decided i will risk putting on the collar again so she wont get run over by traffic , 1 january my other cats woke me up screaming at me , she was stuck in the cat door and suffocated to death and its all my fault for putting the collar on her again , i have not been able to eat in 3 days , im so ashamed and feel guilt of her death , never been this sick and heart broken ever in my life , even after losing family members (people) not pets , losing a 11 year old friend u saw and talked to every day , every morning and night before u go to sleep , head bumping love , all ripped away and i caused the death of my beloved cat cus of my choices , u are not alone , this is horrible , the worst thing , i can barely write this without choking up , barely breathe.. You have probably never heard of this phenomenon because people rarely talk about the situation. I rushed to the vet and he said that he had cardiac arrest already. I lost my talking bird just 3 days ago and i blame myself for her death. I administered her 1 unit of Insulin and gave the first dose of Enalipril. Im hurting so bad but, its nothing compared to her life to being taken from her without option. and I moved my outside chair closer to her who I let out of the cage already and bam- she got frightened and flew up a short tree. Ive been crying every single day since. im so lost. It only took the site of his black fur and and his beautiful little feet to know it was him. my father was killed in 2010, which was my senior year in high school and i was never the same.